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Have I done good in February

Self introspection in 2026 Feb

·MJ
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I started listening to a song called Become by Hebi just an hour ago. Sounds like an energetic song that I was going to search for

Oh well, what have I done this February? As always, I kept my English practice routines and tried to move them forward. Past a certain point, it's quite natural for me to speak out in English. It's not perfect, though.

For the past few days, I've suffered from clueless exhaustion. I'm not capable of doing things that I normally do. Is this a kind of debt caused by the fact that I've deferred regular introspection? Ironically, there's no reason to stick to what I felt was worth it.

Is my writhing forwarded by ambition which might glow still meaningful? Meagre one. That could have been worse. Is it only natural for someone who was stuck inside the army for about 400 days forcibly to feel a bit down?

Unfortunately, I already know that things won't change after I'm discharged. There's a catch, and I've been feeling this kind of traps subtly.

We were lost to the pestilence of the mind. My mood is better than what I wrote in this post, actually. It might be affected by words' dark mood in Hollow Knight?